Freak on a leash

On the way to a small meeting that could possibly bring a big difference in the life and times of me, i had the feeling i had to listen to some Korn. Rap metal is not big anymore but nevertheless, it always gives me space to be still by not be able to think about anything cuz of it’s loudness. Music, whatever genre it may be is my way of silencing the world around me.Today’s flavor is off the field.

Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it’s my life I can’t taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You’ll never see me fall from grace

I dont think i have ever paid attention to the words before, i just drowned myself in what my sister calls noise. I knew something about the track hits home.
Lately, i have feats with everything in my life. At certain points in time, i’d check out of my senses and realize that i have been a living a terrible life. I havent been going out, i havent been seeing the light–i am not living. It’s a sad phase that ultimately lead me to pursue a life that let’s me breathe.

A 30 second speech of Coca cola’s president that hit the net served to be an epiphany. it came at a time when i was feeling sick to my stomach, a feeling i thought was only an expression. But it really happens. I had to be honest with my self, there has been an unseen bloodshed everywhere, i see familiar devils around me and i cant take it. Where i am had become a dungeon so shady, nobody can see straight anymore. Those were the very same devils i fled away from.

All these things are weighing me down,i’m having a bad episode of writer’s block, i stared at a blank sheet for weeks, there were days without sleep and years laced with stress. No i dont think im cut for this life, not anymore. i need a life and im getting one. It’s high time to get my freak on and be unleashed.

It is now time to move on and move forward.I

Fuck this shit

What. The. Heck. Is. Going. On

epic fail

I guess my 2012 started on a very bad note. I came late for breakfast and totally left a bad taste. Nothing about today is short of being an epic fail. I just wish this won’t mirror the rest of the year, no I can’t bear the joke to be on me.

My resurrected x10 mini pro

Wwhhaatt. Tthhee. Hheecckk. Iiss. Hhaappppeenninngg. Ttoo. Mmyy. Pphhoonnee!?  Ttyyppeess. Eevveerryytthhinngg. Iinn. Mmuullttiippllee. Lleetttteerrss. Ggrrrrrrrrrr!

the longest game of charades in Beijing

The trip shaped up to be a fluke at first, Nikky tricked us into thinking we are discussing business plans until the bubble burst and it became clear that we are off to Beijing,China for a much awaited company vacation. The fluke was we have to gear up for winter and none of us have outfits suited for below zero climate,thus the need for shopping and borrowing cash and winter gear where available.Luggage is another deal since my bags are good only for tropical countries that does not require me to pack bulky coats, jackets, sweats, thermalwear,bonnets and scarves; needless to say, I had to buy one. Which is okay cuz it served me well.

streetdancing in beijing

There’s a reason Chinese folks are healthy, for one, they keep active. One night while walking back to our hotel, we passed by the church yard where young and old chinese locals gather to dance. Exhausted from checking out bargains around the malls, the crazy and adventure-seeking instincts we had kicked in. We stepped into the platform and struggled on our feet to follow the steps. A fabulous-looking elderly with the blackest hair I’ve ever seen was kind enough to lead us through. I,with a long enduring waterloo in dancing did not live through, but Diane saw through it. As seen in the video, jay seems to have learned the steps and dancing to the beat, the slow beat, the faster tempo was quite a feat. I eventually learned the steps and was doing it the following day at the hotel driveway. This is one experience in Beijing I enjoyed the most aside from biking in the old Hu Tong Village.

what a day

I would have finished in time if not for the ton of calls as I was polishing my deck

pre halloween jam

I don’t think I ever had a word with these guys in high school and yet here I am hanging out jammin’ and singing along with them. I miss shenanigans like this when we generate our own music. These are one of those nights when I think Victoria truly was a melting pot for musical talent. Almost everyone knows to play an instrument and everyone sings. We can trash talk d school all we want but we can’t deny the kind of environment it has afforded us.

The Monstrosity that was Halloween 2011

For about 4 years now,I have made it a point to attend Halloween costume parties.That was since I realized trick or treating was no longer for me. Last year, I was an afro girl with orange hair, the year before that at Mag:Net I was a rocker and the year before at the Cream ball, I sported a masquerada mask.this year I came as an overfed dementor from harry potter with a costume I dug up from the office stockroom.

I’d drag my sabi work family down to these parties each year,this year they were a no show but a new workmate came down to party and so did my bestfriend angela. while we were gettin’ ready for the party,I was certain we were gonna be hailed by makati avenue cops cuz of what angela decided to come as. Luckily, the closest thing to a cop we got close to was a 6 foot 5 french gay guy in a security guard uniform. And the biggest hassle were a couple of english guys who caught up with us while smoking outside the club.the fryers were in attendance, save for swissy,art and ces. My fave so far was toti’s Homer Simpson get up, boy am I glad cyril did not come as the blood-filled sanitary napkin or worse than that. Fairies,vegetables,dolls, monsters,wizards,devils,angels,yakuzas,cadavers and things dancing blissfully to great music made it look like all was right in the world.

oh hello again BB

After a week of faulty service and a few gaffes w my BB,I’m back at blogging.